We are at 31 weeks! The nursery is done. The baby shower is scheduled. The registry is complete. The invitations have been sent. The hospital bag is packed. 3 more visits to our OBGYN, and one big ultrasound to go! We took our 1st “Bringing Home Baby Class” this week. 2 hours of sleep, feed, change diaper, swaddle, repeat, for the 1st 3-4 weeks! We are getting ready to find out what we are made of!  We have a house full of donated items. (Thank you to my brother in law for that!) It’s all planned out until the baby gets here! Then it all goes out the window! (at least that is what we’ve been told)

At night, I lay in bed beside my wife and watch this little guy just bounce around in her tummy. It’s a miracle to watch part of you growing inside someone else. We talk to him every day. He gets her up at 5 am. The last few weeks he has hit his birth length, and now all he doing is adding fat! We talk about what he is going to be like. Which traits he will get from us, our parents and siblings. This is such a wild adventure. I can’t believe how quickly the time has gone by.

But, I also think about the little fella we lost 5 years ago. I wonder what he would have been like at 5? Would’ve he have been happy he was having a little brother? I know he is with us. I know a little piece of him will be in this little guy. This little guy will be our rainbow baby. I hope I can give him everything he needs. To give him faith. To give him love, trust, and above all, make him laugh. To hold him when he cries and give him the confidence to be what he wants to be. To be slow to anger. To listen and answer all his questions. To protect him from himself and the world. So many thoughts. So many questions.

Of course thats all fluff at this point. I just want to be able to change a diaper, feed him and keep him alive for the 1st few weeks!